What happened to me?
today i had a sudden sadness
i cried , i cried & i cried
telling jennifier what happened
Just a few words, she really encouraged me ...
Maybe that GOD really want to leads me to...
No matter how tough , i gona go thru, i believe and definately!
Jia you

a sister i loves alot
In this blog, i want to tell dom...especially
hey dom, i want to remind you that you AS A BROTHER IN CHRIST
YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO PROTECT BEL
ALLOW HER TO KNOW GOD MORE ,
ALLOW HER TO FOCSE ON GOD THINGS MORE
SINCE YOU AND HER BREAK LE PLS MAKE A CLEAR CUT TO YOURSELF
NOT ALLOWING YOUSELF TOO CLOSE TO HER
I AM SORRY TO SAY THIS
AS I REALLY CANT STAND THE WAY YOU ARE
THE WAY YOU TREAT BELINDA, THE WAY YOU SCOLD AND SAY HER SUCH AS SCOLDING HER BASTARD
I FELT THAT YOU REALLY HAVE TO REFLECT YOUSELF..
DONT THINK THAT I DONT KNOW THAT U CALL BEL TODAY NOT TO MEET ME
HEY !
YOU ARE A BROTHER , IS THIS THE WAY YOU SHOULD BE REACTING
SHE ALSO GT HER CHOICE AND DECISION
YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CONTROL HER!!!

Just thought of update that my class went to excursion...
Going there dont seem to be anything excited as i feel that being in class QC seem to be so far from them.
So i was along alone walking , tour the area myself.Suddenly i felt that i being back to square .I not sure why does this happened to me.I felt whether i am in QC , no one will feels my presence.QC is a class that i feel so unknown,I dont seem to know the people there , is a place that i feel mo shen.
So i walked around there myself...then i saw psp place.SO i decided to played since nthing much to do.Afther that Mr jerome came haha..he say that i am good in playing which actually is not.

Recent mood seems abit down especially my own classmates

I dont seem to get well with them

well, maybe that my life ba..Although i felt very blessed that mari blessed me alot of things..really appreciated alot!!!

It seemed like i only have mari this friends haiz...

Only Lord is my best friend that is for sure!

17 august 2008
a day i declare that i shall be real single back
knowing that me and him seem impossible
everytime as i msg him
conversation seem to plain unlike the past
we seldom see each other but that does not mean i dun put him in heart
when i see him , angry,feeling stress with certain stuff..i heart pain ..willing to share burden with him..yet ....
i feel being cheated
feel that i am v stupid
feel that i m idoit
I hate myself being so weak esp in relationship
then give in to him
my best frenz say he is aguy worth to be
well..right now..it dont seem to be
hate myself why i fang bu xia him since he already fang xia me
guys are always like that...they are easily move to other thing so that they will not be distracted
WHY???WHY I FANG BU XIA
I HATE THAT FEELINGS ..ALL MY RELATIONSHIP IS LIKE THAT
why guys are like that...this world is courrpted
Good guys are few , bad guys are increasing
dont think that you see those couples together , very close
well more 50% they will not go long
Today ..i cry badly..no mood to do things ...
i want to go out but no where to go
Nw mood was so damn down..
feeling that only bel, kor , des and xinyi and my dar ( yokejin) is the best
including my sis and bros of christ
as well as my best best frenx lena and dinah
SO i will try all my might to fang xia as i dun rely on mt strenght but LORD strength
By faith , i know i going to do it just like when i used to like hp..haha..bt nw i dun like him but love him as my wonderfull brother..

Happy National Day!!!

Spending my time studying at home form 10 to 6 pm...

Quite glad that i managed to follow my time table 80%

haha..but 6pm, suddenly feel so sian,watching the national day show

then watching halfway, i fell asleep at the sofa..

though still have so much time can study yet my brain dont seem to be working ..

Looking at my phone..no 1 msg me

wondering what is he doin in malaysia

he did not reply my msg as i had waited for 4 hrs

haha..so i soon at home rot ..

Juz want to share with my friends here

that recently , i read a book call kiss dating goodbye

I really learn alot from this bk ..teaching me about diff aspects of relationship

so here wan to share

how to we know the person we loved truely love us?

here i have 2 example

Couple A been a relationship for nearly a year, they have been pure until gt 1 night , Sam and mary decide to show their love that they went to the hotel to have sexual pleasure..To them that is the way to show their love towards each other.

Couple B has been a relationship for 4 years. They want to honour LORD that they go into pure and holiness . During the four years , they did not kiss until the they married. To them , is not easy , yet they want to go into obedience to LORD.

From here, Nowadays why there are so many people does not go long in relationship, having short term relationship, many people go into divorce.This has become so common nowadays. I want u friends to know that God does not want to see this . Going into pure and righteneous is something we should pursue. Though is not easy , yet this is where we learned to respect each other and protect each other .

okay ,i think that all will continue update..have t study ..

yoz!!!In School write my blog..wahaha
juz want to update on tue 5 of August 2008
A day where is his birthday
Before this day arrived , i was rather busy with studies as well as making his gifts
Though people may say why u waste time and do all these unnessary stuff
yet to me , no is not ..I enjoy making gifts to people only to people that are important to me and my best girl friends
we went to east coast
breezy winds and enjoy the atmostphere there
i bought a cake from angle the choice for him
not knowing that he is unwel yet he still finish
then we just chit chat and he even tiket me ..haha
that was him
love to play
then we went home , he sent me home..
surprised that our relationship seem to go in pure..
After that night , i realise that i miss him ...truely

tired day

i feeling very tired ..tired about my parents stuff and my personal stuff..

been crying non stop from kallang mrt station to singapore indoor stadium

Eyes was swollen that bros ask me am i alright ?

i told them and i cry more..

went to fop is something i never regret about it

3 of august is 1 day that

if my parents really get divorce , i does not want to follow any 1 of them..

my mum always quarrel with dad

i really dunno who to side with as either 1 of them will say that i always side the other parties

In the word which say that as 1 ppl in the household are saved , the whole household shall be saved..this something i keep on believe..

if i had the ability, i will want to tell my parents that i shall neither follow 1 of them as

i want to live with LORD in enterity

live in heaven

follow Christ is something that i desire

Serve HIM as is something that will mould me to be more like HIM

i realise that loving a man in earth is something that i should not have

it is a selfish relationship as it require long time commitment without sexual emotions

who can do it ?

yes we can!!! but not easy

i will not give up for my breakthough ..

as i know is HE who give me the strength to move on..

past 2 days i have been doin things for 5 of august baby//haha