sick and tired

back here !these few weeks ,i have been sick ,with bad flu an d sore throat..still going to work and church..hahahs..thxs GOD that i could tahan...As when i am sick,a sudden thought came in my mind...thinking of him ..Like will he be able to take care of himself ?with such a weather ...will he be able to go 4 scv?who knows that two days lata ,as i sms him how the scv ,then he say he sae he did nt go..i ask him the reason,,he reply that he is unwell...i was shock when he say that...i concern him ...telling him to rest more..and drink more water...So immediately after my work at night ,i call him to see is he ok...then we chat 4 15min then we hang...
hahhas then nw christmas si cuming ,i have nt see him for 2 weeks le....miss him bt cant do much...then every day i working 4 long hrs until i v v v tired ...bt no choice ,i still have to work until i get a better job...ok
that all to update ...cya

cg dinner

shawn was doin his rice

ooo mellisa was cookin while others helpin

These few wks ,i have been quite busy ...Busy working ...hhahhs...Although i only see him once a week ,yet will continue be there for him...Busy until my leg so pain ..hahhas ..no choice has to work ...1 thing that that i gg share was that last cg ,we have dinner together...As for me ,i playing games with the cgbs and janice too...Partly bcos he was there....wanting to look at him more...so then we eat together ,joyce taking picture ,bryna helping in kitchen ,mellisa cooking chicken ...ooooMeillisa cooks was so awesome ...i cant even cook that...sson we have game again then bro raymond share about his story that touches me deeply
I cried ,feeling that bro raymond was going thru simething similar as me ,yet i seem to be so much weaker than him...In certain times ,i even become negative ...Thxs LORD that bro raymond support me ,teaching me and aso keep on encouraging me ....I really love this brother...
another is this week i have been struggleing from strong perscution ,quarrel with my mum ,dad and sis ...i dun want to quarell with them or even to give them bad attuide ,yet i dun seem to have thatpeace .....i share this to bryna and him...bryna tok to me and he toks to me on phone ,he encourage him to look postive and pray and leave it to LORD ....Aso nw is Arise and Build that devil will do all things to block us from doing great things for HIM...ya that all le ..wil update soon

chalet

recently ,my mood was nt so gd...whatever i do,seem dun do it well...seem to be so restless...i call to chat with desmond ,it do helps bt nt much.The nxt day(14 nov 2007) ,i wake up earli as i could nt slp..well so juz nice,bryna msg me..abt fasting .I began to chat with her on sms ,then she call my phone so we chat on phone ...i felt better after chating eith her...
on 15 nov 2007 ,i went 4 interview then i went to chalet..mood still quite low..i met my primary sch classmate ,she and her friends were aso gg to chalet so we went together.we reach the chalet ,i almost miss the stop,luckily i saw bel n linyi if nt wo hui mi lu le...!hahhaas..i went chalet then chat with my lao gong A,laopao and my sis..hee...do talk abt about him...then we wait 4 taiya haahhas.finally we gals cook nuggert,fishballs and sstay...ooo nice nice ...some are stolen to eat by we gals ...then those boys went to eat the fried rice le
didnteven wait 4 us....after some time,we hear a scream,all of us thought is ther e is a fire ...who knows is they see i xiao qiang...all of them was frigthened i then help them to get rid of the xiao qiang...it was funny after all ..
after all the tiring day ,we gals the ate our dinner .we then have water bomb activities hahah s,is was so fun.soon ,i cal cheemun to fill a tub of water to pour over me,bel advised me nt do ,however i juz want make myself wet ,this make me feelbetter....A birthday songs was sang ,we ate it ...sooo nice...then we take turns to bathe ,,,yokejin 1st ,xinyi 2nd ,bel 3rd then ME! after all the gals has bathe ,dinah and 1 chat toether ,the others then play game ...hahhas they even eat tibits...they then play sparker ..soo many smoke ,...hahahas
then i went up to balcony ,sitting alone ...looking at the stars ...thinking of him couldnt b able to slp...i juz daze ,while listen to the song that he sent to me..Being alone was so good .then chee mun came out and ask zm i ok?i ans and say to me that i am ok ...Zheng Rui ,randy then yen kang came out and ask ...i didnt except that they came and ask me what happen .I really appreciated that they would me this friend,a normal friend like me.bel ,yokejin and xinyi also concern me .thanks alot! I drink abit of alcohlic from zr hahas...it was nice .i ask yk4 some .he dun wan hahahs..i know that all of our guy friends are rather nt a bad person...he dun encourages ,then began to chat ....slowly he bean to chat with me...i began to be more open to him,then talk about my problems ....we chat about 3 hours ,hantto hahahas he came and ask wheather we finish chating hahhs.After cahting with me,i seem to know yk as another person.I felt even better after chating with him ,now are more cheerful gal...ya ...i did nt sleep the whole night ,sson is another day le.chating with cheemun and hantto ..telling hp nt to drink so much ,he did nt want listen ,asking him to slp he didnt want too.i was angry =(...
then soon all of us left except dinah ang taiya .and malay gals ..hajahahs.we took bus home.immediatey ,i fall alseep after worship GOD for 3 song s then i fall alseep.that day i gt a call that i will be able to start work and i went out with bel and linyi to get the stuff that we want.That day ,i had a bad quarrel with mu mum ,i cry badly .stIll i went to cg after i gt my stuff .i felt so much better to leave it all to HIM ...soon my mum call and i quarrel again then i cry ...i hate the devil ...however .i not gg to give up...i shall continue to seek LORD that i know i will grow spiritual strong .mature christian nad will have my breakthough ....hao le thatall i could update

that nite

it was sunday where we have scv..i love it!having the anoiting of holy spirit that came upon me ,i like it..hahhahs...it strengthen me alot..then we haf a great scv with Ulf Ekman,he seems to be so happy ..hee!the whole scv was 3 and 1/2 hrs ,i do enjoy alot=)we even haf enjoy a mimi concert too...we aso have own cg pm at ben anutie jia at 3.3o .the pm was so awesome that the presence of LoRd was so Strong!i love to feel LORD 's presence and in HIS dewelling place.soon i go and watch him playing baskerball.the match was amazing...then i went to his jia..i juz want to pei him abit more...HAving to see his dog..hahahs,he didnt bathe her.his dog seem to so frighten ,haiz he should spent more time to bring her out,i believe this will be better....then ......
we kiss n hug and we together.and hold hands..this really make me cant bear part with him..he and me went supermarket ..wanting to buy somethings to eat ,yet haahahs we dunno wat to eat!he sent me to bustop ,my bus came and we had a kiss b4 i left...i was really miss him that make me want to see him..haiz will try my best to do my o 's too as is a time that i could shine well 4 HIM..kk that alll

photo

this is my excgl...she loves to take picture of herself...ha

hahs..used to it le

hahaahs..this is what my excgl do in eugene room..nt bad right

on that silent night

On that night,7 of nov 2007...is a unforgetable night for me...that day ,earlly morning i went to belinda 's hse to make jasnie gift...hahahs,although is tiring that i onli slept 3 hrs,however i enjoy!
Then i went to meet him(sm)at tamp mrt station,he was with a cgb together as he has juz discharged from hosiptal...so we went to eat lunch ..(sm) and i eat lunch together ...hahas i gif him alot of rice ,i aso gif him sum portions of fish.he gif me some meat..hahhas...is always in my mind..
so then went to arcade,he likes to play parapara,which is sometimes that is haed 4 me to learn.I was watching him playing,until he is breadthless,wahhahahs,nt young le still so active!so then we went to take a bus to hougang ...Again we went to macdonale with cgb n cgs..haahhs!he treat we all to eat...is a blessing hhahas.As we r eating,we fellowship that i learn alot in him when he (sm)is was having convertation with cgb...then we take a trian to kovan..to celebrate Eugene's birthday...we play card game,wel i dun even noe how to play so i sat beside him n c him play...In the middle,i do learn abit ...then we play baskerball by borrow a ball from a small little boy...after awhile ,joyce they all came...so we all went to welcome..\
Joyce want to gif Eugene a surprise that she went to his room to hang something..haahs that was so funny.Meanwhile,the rest were at downstair,play baskerball together ,i was same grp as him ,yet my baskerball skill was the lousier,still in the grp..we haf a great fun...soon ,joyce gif Eugene a surprise..he was force to wear the funny things at his head..then we take photo...hee..we help him pray n sing birthday song...phew!then we went down play again,then i stopped and went to toilet cool myself down ..i was sweat like mad.we sing birthday songs again with Eugene other friends,we had cake ...too is nice..hahhs
(sm),i went home together...so when we go to hougang and take bus.As we r going to cross the road,we hold hands and cross ...in deep ,i was happy hahhs..we sat together and i slept on his shoulder.I had never had this before,where i wish to continue like this with no end..however ,it happen so fast and short...we tok and i juz lie on his shoulder.i like being with him,slowly i begin to understand him what kind of person he is...To like some1 that loves LORD juz like me ,is nt easy..Previously ,1 guy that i like,he was the main source that makes me lose focus on LORD..i hate that feelings...Wel,back to here,(sm) and i grew closer .Haiz then soon we reach,i was thinking how come so fast reach..sob so then we went seperate ways...
kk that all i want to update...will continue do what i surpose to do..May GoD Bless

being sorry

here again to write blog...hee...today i was so sorry to my dear frenz...i actually had promise her to have dinner .However,i break the promise.I did not mean it ,juz tat my cirumstance dont allow me..i want so much to have dinner ,having fun with her and taking pictures with her...haiz..After o lvl, i really hope we 9 sians will still have fun together,bonding of friends will still be that strong.wa! tomorow going to collect results...was nervous how my result will be...hahhas...i wan to watch 1409 movie...who wana to watch neh...i dun think my friend will want watch as some of them are scared...Who will want pay $ to scared themselves..hahahs...Anyway i really hope my tat frenz will understand..i believe she will through god..

Yesterdae,i went to scv.Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Nich came.I was touched with the way he was,He was born without limbs,yet he was not despondant.He was always cheerful ,never tat he blame god why he was born like tat.I was being encouraged and motivate by him.I cry non stop 4 what god has been a wonderful god.Although he did not have limbs yet he rely on god ,he shine well 4 lord in his studies.Nick sae tat lord has greater plans 4 us then we have.So bcos of his trust n believe in god,God has not fail him because of HIS faithfulness...

tat all i has write..look upon 4 sch reopean as i m going to have pocket money again..hahhas

sch holidae

wa! so long i did nt update le...this whole holiday i have been at hme.to study n aso read the word of god.i have slowly get back to the mood to study le..yay thxs 4 my cell group to pray 4 mix..i was so touch when joyce hug me n tell me to keep on seeking lord tat they r praying 4 mix.I cry with my tears flow down my cheeks.then raymond tok to mix n encourage .i really appreciate tat.I love my cell bro n sis ,they r wonderful ppl.

Now i began to b more focus on my studies ,4 mix i m nt gg to gif up.i know i m walking on the narrow way ,however this is the way to HIM.

nt having to see him,i have began nt to think abt him...Although i will still loook at his pics thinking abt him,yet i know i juz miss him in sum ways.yokejin n i has becum wonderful friends.we use to b enemies yet cos of god's love n forgiveness,i 4give her of wat she used to do on mix,n i began to love this friend.god show mix another side of her tat makes me grow alot.Hey frenz,i really love u this frenz ,never wil i 4get u n our she wen...muckies

His presence

jing tian zhai school li,dang wo kan jian ta yi bu bu shi hen kai xin de yang zi,wo ye bu zi bu jue de shou ta de ying xiang.ta bu kai xin shi,wo zi ran er ran de ye bu kai xin.haiz...bu zhi zhen yang shou cai hao.Er jiu dang ta men shou yao qu ta de jia shi,wo shi hu you yi tian chong dong ,xiang qu ta jia.However HE seem to be direct me nt to go ,bt to go hme n rest then go bs.Is good to obey HIM,i felt so good.i will continue jiayou and nt wanting to give up

raining

31 of july...last dae of mth...raining heavily,was in school.A friend of mine who was in bad mood..seeing her sad,however i standing as a position friend,i could do nothing to make happy.But i know she will be alright .Suddenly ,i have this idea ,that is to have fun under the rain.I invite my friend,(yiyi) to join .yiyi and i seem to be very excited,very soon .both of us ran to play under the rain.U may think we are crazy,however,we are not.we enjoy the fun.Immediately ,we went into library and settle down.I was shocked and surprised that he seem to be unhappy with what i am doing.this which i dun noe why he would react in that why.Although he is however ,immediately he take 2 packet of tissue and gave mix.hahas

able to face up

hahas...i m bk...know wat !After i begin to step out faith to tell my mum n dad tat i want go church,they object.Tat was when my whole body begin to stress up.I began to cry sorrowfully.i juz could not stop,however thxs Him 4 being a wonderful Daddy to mix.He is my peace ,comfort n encourager.I seem to have lose strenght to face it,But i not going to give up,for what i facing could not compared...haahs ok i cant write sumore as i m tired...remember be a good cheer...

HIs greatfulness

hihi...i m here to write about what had happen on thur (26/7/2007)..tat dae was a wonderful dae....hahas Being so greatful tat as i need a taxi ,He gave mixx,He bless me with extra $4 to take a cab to school.He make it possible 4 my oral to be earilier where He strengthern mixx ,calm mixx n the wisdom He give.this day i aso receives my breakthrough of my father...heee tat all thxs 4 His everything (28 july 07)

no feeling le

hi....so long i did nt been writing due to studies.hahas i n him has nt communicate le.we seem to b getting further n further le.i begin to lost the understanding of him...further n sad...hahs bt is ok!every day HE changing me n my wounds r heal..k tok nxt time(24july 07)

finalli

woo...hahas..todae so happy as noe what i had get a great fun !playin with him..at his home i was happy,through is short bt still i cherish every min every hour n every sc with him...however when he did nt go sch,i was so upset.Anyway,so long he happy i aso will happy..k tat all..gd nite..will update again (30 may o7)

so miss

hey...my first time to write blog...hahas...hmm...first day sch holiday..can say sian..quite miss him through haf 3 days did nt see him.haiz!!!still haf a big mountian of hw..haiz...cant c him...sob**