On 27 july

reading the word of god in the morning

the word really impact me

Increase my passion and desires of serving HIM and have more deeper relationship wih HIM

that wanting to do HIS will not my will

29 july

FINALLY!!!

excel exam is over

feeling so relax

actually thought to mit johnson after exam

but his eye pain then never mit ..haiz

so in the end , i went to mit my dear mei..BELINDA & desmond

end up..my mood went all the way down

i seem to be sensitve when des say i am fat

i dont used to bother ..yet now i seem to have low self esteem

we went to eat kfc when kor then join in..

bel on that day was so damn high that i felt so hard to simile

after we depart..on the way ..i broke down..kneeing down in the middle of interchange

then as i cry, des and kor suddenly appear

asking me are u ok?

trying to hide my tears..i absorb back ..pretend that everything is fine

des and kor knew i am not in right mood well i just dont know why i would react in this way

still in the end..i walk home alone ..listening songs..wanderless

30 july ..on wed

a day that dont study much

accompany my sis to consult doctor

fees...61dollars...ex?ya no choice have to consult private 1

then miss bfd lesson.

afd conduct abt electives courses

listen to talk

having ofd lesson abt access

hard bt try to understand..immediately

i went to slp after i reach home..if johnson know ..then he will say me lan zhu again

haha..

again..mit des and kor today..as i promise i want to treat des a meal..

we went to pastamania to eat..oo

it had been a long time since secondary 4 that we had pastamania..that time was with my dar dar, bel , xinyi and kor..haha..

ordered by des and me

the further 1 is misto mushroom which is des ordered

the nearer is me that order name dont really remembered

haha

ah!!

this is kor ordered 1

is rice

name dont remember too

well who would bother wad the name ,,hao chi jui hao le

A look that is nature

feeling amazed with the moving food..haha

kor that hand destory the whole pics

well

is still quite ok overall

timusa desert

des, me and kor share

so damn shok

it has been a long time to eat somthing good

As for this ..onthe way home..feeling sian

des slept inthe train

nt siting down

bt squat dwn

that the tiredness look nt slping well for 2 days..

is ugly ..

finally finished update..at 2.05am

Here to continue in 26July2008

Went to market in morning,bought many stuff in the wet market and NTUC

feel like auntie ..bit dont mind

Mum Start ranted in me saying that i am not a good child even call me to be prostitue when i told her that the previous bill i pay..

Though hurt , yet forgive her..as i know that my mum dont mean it and i know that i leave it to HIM that i dont feel hatred..

Try my best to study my accounts yet seem so hard

Finally , i get myself prepare to go church..a place that i love to go

Well i gt myselfprepare for the prayer miting at 3.30pm with my dear bro ( Eugene)

Enjoy in the strong anointing and presence ..praying about 1hr and 15 min

Then until 5.30 pm YEA!!! finally service started..i become so enjoyed that i keep jumping around while praising HIM.Bryna and benji was speechless with me..I like that feeling to be happy in HIS tengible presence.Pastor Derek preach the word about running the race to win..WOW.( keep the Faith in you as you are running the marathorn;persistence & determination alone are amoinptent)

Wanting us not to look back during the race

Having the faith in GOD that HE will restor us back

As we live by Faith and not by Sight

Be a good Finisherin the race

5keys to finish the race

1.Knows what fills & drain your future

2.Understand how to balance in life

3.Serve & Lead out the rest

4.Find a lighting Rod

5.You must be discipline in your daily devotions

After hearing this, i felt that is the second time spoke to me ..the same thing but deeper

Being so impact and anointed , i went down to receive the anoiting so as to restore back the plans HE plan in me.

After that..i went home ..this service increase my passion and desire for LORD that I want to do something more..

Ganbettle..yijing will contine in part 3

Strong anoiting

Midnite 12.26

Updating what had recently happened on me

On 25 july, a day where i get closer and connect to GOD

Spending time in HIS embrance is something that money cant buy

Reading HIS word soon become something i am hunger for

After sch, jogging then home..soon fell alseep that Johnson would always say i am a lan zhu as i seem to enjoy sleeping..haha..well

Forcing myself to wake up, i did the prayer list

Having a perpared heart to go to cell group

Unexpected, not much people came yet it came 4 koreans people..

We enjoyed the game of playing early in the moring whom the game master is MICHELLE

Joyce, Michale and Jiaquan kana the 4feet..well i really laughed alot

Worship started, we all were in the presence of LORD

Ariel started to speak , saying that we had to be strong in HIS ways..being the 1 to love and have mercy with people..wanted us to get closer with HIM..WOw

i cry not outside bt inside me

Furthermore, the word which Raymond preached..God is Able

Inhere, which say that everywhere you go , there is negative news

2tim 3:1

Rom 8:37-38----In all things we are more than conquerors through HIM who loved us.

Mean that no matter what happen, Lord will conquer the trouble and leave the burdern away .God has almightly power that t o know HIM intimately and experientially, we need to aknowledge HE is able.

5Things that GOD is able to do in our lives

1.God is able to save us completely

heb7:25

2.God is able to keep us from sin

heb2:18

3.God is able to supplied all of our needs

2cor9:8

4.God is able to heal our diseases

We need to believe that HE can heal us

5.God is able to deliver us from debt

1 chr 29:12

Whoever you area and whatever your need, God 's strength is avaible to help you.

Our Faith is what realease GOD's power in our lives!

I felt that God is speaking to me about the races that i running

from here i begin to know deeper that what GOD really want me to think and do..

I told what has happened to me to michelle as she realise that i m nt in right condition.Taking the step of faith , i told her...she then telling me abt hers and advise me what happening in me..i get a clearer picture..of what kind of sitution am i nw..Again taking greater faith and bryna seem so hard , bt i manage to do it.Fear that shescold me yet she just say that you are spritually matured and you know what went wrong so what are u waiting 4?I make a serious thought and had make a decision..

Reach hme, had a kind of peace heart that i become more cheerful and happy..

will contined...

tao pok shawn!!!

My dearest cell leader bryna and me

A wonderfull jie which takes every of the member in E403

Yan ling , mE, michelle(love all my sisters)

yoz!!recently quite busy going out ,study that hardly have time to update..

updating my cell group bbq at Eugene jia..As for me, i bring 1 fenz which i soo happy .His name is danny , knew him in school..We knew each other when he decided to take num from me which me Shocked..In the Beginning , I was quite stranger to him, wondering why does this guy from the bustop keep looking at my direction, taking the same bus 10 with me, walking the same speed with me to go school.I decided to act blur,that i think ,suppose he buck out the courage to ask me if i m willing to be friends with him.Thinking for a moment,dont mind to have 1 more frenz then 1 more enemies..Right?

After commuicating with him, knowing him better, i soon realise that he also the childern of GOD..Wow..that makes me feel happy ..haha..so it makes me easilier to talk to him, knowing more about what kind of person he was..Then i decided to invite him to my cell bbq, never did i expect that he agreed easily..well so that friday finally arrive , i was late to mit him..as people who know me well, i m always late !!!i know tat is bad, i still trying not to be late..Never did i realise that he was waiting for me for 1 hr .. OmGoodness..Thank GOD that he did nt angry bt forgive me..So we went ..finally we reached to location ..Games started to be the 1st thing..We really had fun as i also keep on entertained him..not wanting to leave him alone..

Then we took pics together..Now cantshow as all is at my jie there!!!haha

Then i went to mit my dearest (him) haha , he drive me home..seeing him makes me feel happy..haha

23july was quite sad when i see my result

mirocsoft word =D

Business fundementals= C

My ledger in accounts i failed..

Looking at all this feel disappointed that it push me harder..Bt i will keep on looking on HIM,believing that as i keep on praying,puting more effort, leave my desire and burdern on HIM, for HE will not forsake me but anoited me and give me wisdom and strength..

Plus thank Johnson encouragement too

yijing jia you..

hey..juz update abit haha..a boring fire emergency day..Every1 take this chance to take picture instead taking the exercises importantly..well it applies to me too..hahah

Above picture that taken recently..Recently , i was quite busy with exams of tiral balance ,ledger and going out with some1.Hence ,updating blog will only be when i m free.

Well, eversince i like him , i feel that i truely experience the love of someone..Sometimes , i would miss him out of sudden which i dont know why..haha..But Thank GOD that i still be able to cope ,though hard still trying my best .Coping with ledger and journal is something that i been trying hard..And that excel ,making an effort to practice at least 2 exercise each day..

Here the above is where after my drama exam on customer service ,which we have taken..Looking at it , feel a king of happy that Finally! my BFD exam is over!!!haha..Anyway, i will keep on jia you

picture which we taken ..

Hey..It been quite some time for me to update again..nw is earlly in the morning as i force myself to wake up to do abit of my project.

REcently ,before school start i went to work in expo for 4 days, though only that 4 days ,many things happened.

!st i finally cut my sux hair and nw my hair is so damn short yet i like it cause it makes me look better and more confidence. Cutting this hair has cause me spend alot yet i dont mind .Well i always has this teory that "always to something you like when you are young."

During this 4 days, my friends list increased to 3 more which is glenn, han ming and er ge (johnson)..glenn a person that is good to talk to and fun to play with. Hanming is a person that i dont really know what his mind thinking yet i know that he a good friend to be and lastly is johnson (er ge).He is someone that i enjoy to be with and talk with ,although our age grap is 5 yrs yet i feel is alright. I like his care and concern that which i never had before in my previous last 2 relationship..He grow in an enviornment that i feel that no love in it ,which lead to he dont seem to cherish his life.This lead me that i want to encourage him more and give him support more .

During these four days , i learnt alot in promoting brief which people will say eeks ..haha..though is abit disgust yet i feel that so long you have a proper mindset in doin this job it should not be a problem..we have great fun in it, sometime me,han ming n er ge do have our emo preiod that glenn cant ta han about it..