END OF 2008

dec 28 2008
life for me working whole day
celebrate christmas eve with mum which was boring
christmas on the actual day was awesome to me
go church very early
from 10 to 2pm
was there since 9am
went to my cousian hse

we fellowship like never before
sing and play guitar

my beloved sister in christ , we having candlelight services..oo

( i think is time to put 2008 behind, means by puting junxiang and johnson behind..2 guys was once i truely loved..many times i told myself to put down yet somehow there a barrier in me..puting somwhow seem so hard.Making myself busy to forget them, yet when i see junxaing, my mouth so hard to open to talk(heart was even hard to open again)

And when i see johnson, i still could communicate with him yet was no longer much like in the past. Heart was ache when he dun talk to me but i have to hide. telling myself that i want to be happy and just treat them as normal friends. so in 2009 . they will be my past tense , and i shall loook forward, hard yet still have to do it.

busyness is to make me forget them and shall enjoy single life plus i gona to change for the better)

19-23 nov -busy week that i hardly breathe

I was terrible sick from 20 nov until 2dec ,wow

i have a great encounter in asia conference though was busy

elective was awesome that o believe is something for me to rise up

In the mist of ending the wk of nov , i ihave exams ,project was even to kill me

yet is HIS strength that pull me through

Dec a new month

Many things started to hit badly

yet no fear

is a test from HIM and aso how strong am i gg to stand for HIM

cry times and times

is something that i cant tahan

possibe?parents divorce?

well have to pray

exams ending yet still have the lla project and role play to do

furthermore , whatever alvin is teaching , for QC students i believe they are struggling

is not easy but i believe we QC going to do well

SO life has to carry on

in addition , my surrounding is an increase of ppl getting attach which irriates me alot

yet wad can i do ?

Sigh

I know i have to get over it . Often i have to tell myself that you have to get my stand clear.

Knowing what situation i am , yet often bcos of emotion , thinking that harm me badly .

SOmetiems, i just seemly dislike the way i am

I just have to escape as far as possible

Good guys decreasing , bad guys increasing