new year & valentines

yoz!this is taken during the sunday where E323 and E403 celebrate our renioun dinner and valentines...ooo..heee..these are all my brothers where they are given SOCKS for valentines ..haha!their socks are quite colourfull....

next...oo haahah...this are the sisters and some friends..

Look at those flowers that we take ...are make by our dear brother;junxiang...he represent all of the brothers while joyce;my dear big sis ,represent all of sisters..

see !how michael post his act..haha..that a funny..

And this!my dear big sis ,aso my ex cgl..taking pictures with those lao yu sheng..hahah.hmm..jing me did not even eat !sob

See these!..Oh my !my bro and sis ..prepare ...Jing do nthing..hee...well..i just eat..feel quite bad..Is ok...jing will help the next time...ooo

see this !my brother...oo..the guy that seem to be the only 1 to do all those food and washing...well that what i see in him...hahah..noe what!i feel he wear that spec..look quite suit the way he is..hahah

And this..aso another bro ..that i loves so much...A bro that never fails to encourage me

Durin that day ,my mood was not so gd when i reach there...which is bcos of him...then i emo some time..After sandy and i went to fetch her sis and friends..some how ,i dunno why...i bcome high...things then seem better..so then i juz gather with jx,janice,michelle ,shawn to eat steamboat(the remaining 1)haha..bit we still enjoy...some brothers sings together..Although it irrates me,still enjoy ...that really boost up my mood..

A day then end again ..joyce say that she know how to mope the floor...We look at her moping the floor..rather funny..In the enf ,it was jx that do the whole moping..JINg laugh ..and...we went home together..this time could say is more of happy moments ..rather than sad..k that all ..still have more..

things nt in our way part 1

hi..today!was quite a tired day..morning went to handle some stuff.
afternoon went to pass my sis spec ,then go to sch...asking for tesimonial yet teacher was advised not to give to student...sad bt have to be xian shi ..so then des get his art stuff.while waiting ,i beginning to zhi lian..hahhah,taking pictures of myself.Xinyi and des then cum my ah ma jia help me to do the ite stuff..then soon we went to eat dinner.
then i went to meet junxiang,as we are goin to take huo che.then he ask me am i go for cg tmr?i answew maybe ,depends.then he sae certain things,i juz tried to tok back his solution.I know he want to help me ,that all of wad he say ,keeps repeating in my brian.Thinking of what he say,really affect me alot.so while i thinkin,wei and i attend the mentoring programme..it really makes me learn alot...hahah.after that is i keep thinking .soon,i seem like become easily aftet by what he sae,mood went all the way down.

continue

Recenlly has happen alot things in my life,that i really thxs god for bring des this frenz in my life.He really encourages me alot,aso xinyi .From him,i could realy feel that he really grown alot.when in my life ,he say dun wan to continue his relationship,i really feel sad and almost breakdown !However,HE heal me but juz that i dun allow my whole burden on HIM.As this continue ,my family thing came in to b more worst plus fininical soon becum a problem.everything juz hit me ..i soon become negative that i even thought of diein and leave this world,since i am a burden to my family.My spiritual become so weak that i dont even feel like goin to cg and church .I really almost give up GOD but i keep telling myself (nO!I CANT GIVE UP ON GOD...NVR SHLD I BE !)whenever i thought of this that.i really struggle alot .des ,hahha he would talk to me ,encourages me to think postive he sent me this (yao yi jin wei dui ,kong zi qing she.wang ji guo qu,kan zhe wei lai)(jing ,i m trying to let go alot of matters,so lets hold on together.This is the last timeu gonna cry due to him .tml onwards,learned to be the darling yet wised jing.Peopledo change.and u know i wasnt like this de ma..b4 we met,i wasnt so highso darlingand all.jing no matter wat,i will pul u wail pass this tricky road.des say i 1 of the kind that worth alot in market)hahaha.i laugh...so when in times ,i fall ,god through this frenz des that pull me that allow me to stand..then he sent msg to me ,ask wad happen to me ?why i become like that ,izzit bcos him ,i becum like that .i dont want to tell him as he is part of my reason.i juz tell him 3quater of it...he even sent me this verse (deuteronomy 31:6 be strong and of good courage,do not fear nor be afraid of them;for the LORD your GOD,HE is the one who goes with you.HE will not leave you nor forsake you."GOD nv fails ,HE loves you just the way you are.dun gove up on GOD pls)it really touches my heart that hold me through.i haf this thought of why u must wait until something happen to jing then msg me .why?haiz ...still des is still so encouraging .des taught me how to b daring to reply ppl when things dun go in my way ,and how to see the kind of ppl shld be along.hahaah...as 4 the he,i could onli say that i will always love him as my brother .I believe i can do it through GOD,nt easy bt still have to do it...even when i go cg ,i dun no hw to face him,however i believe holy spirit will lead me through....

part 1

hi...juz to update...recently,haf some things happen !A guy that i knew him quite long abt 1 yr...his name joseph..in the beginning he is ok to me...then this yr after my bf break with me.he call.he then came in my life.that day i cry ,i did nt ask why my bf break with me i juz kept crying.joseph and i began to chat ,he comfort me soon we chat for 2 hrs until midnight 3plusam.soon i began to like tell himwad i doin,it seems like i nt his gf and keep wanting me to report to him.when that day i went to manicure bt too many ppl.i began to cry which i dun even noe why i will.i call kor,bt he like cant hear my voice,then i juz hang .xinyi call .i did nt ans...i juz keepn on crying siting in the bk shop.then i walked to exit lean on the wall,des call and i pick up,he ask wad happen to you.I told him wad has happen !he understand ,he ask me want to go bugis to find them .i cry while tokin to him.then after that my mum called i was allow to go bk hme....late .then i went to find them at bugis...des comfort me .he really understand how i feels and encourage me ...so then we go shop as to help kor buy clothes..hhahh..kor kor is time to change ...his style.soon joseph msg me,i juz tell him that i withdes...he msg bk in harsh tone...like who is he to you?why your $ is with him?then des help me to reply msg and shoot him...that where it begun the battle where joseph show his truth colours...i becum so scared that i hold in des tight ...noe wad!des is v nice to hug as he gt meat ..hahahah...kor is more of bone..both guy then help me to deal with joseph ...he keep calling finally i pick up and ans.des and kor sae dun talk much juz hang up.however ,i like an silly gal keep on listeniing wad he say.des say me v lousy ,bt he believe that through this ,i will grow .when i hme, i cry .....des call comfort me again then we chat abt 2 hrs and noe wad!he FALLLS ASLEEP!...i laugh ..hahaha wait
there more will update soon

bad to gd?nt really !bt i grow

yoz!Friends...juz to update wif yo u guys....recently,my guy came out le,i wad so v v happy .yet ,this is short term happiness.

why do i say so?ever since after christmas,his action has been missin for 1 month...in this 1 month,i had been considering if i should contiue to wait for him.after having a gd chat with jie,i had make a choice.i decide togive up him.I keep prayin to LORD to gif me strength to go thru...praying for him too..I long ago has preparation .

Finally that day that i dun want to c .it came.It happen on 1st of feb nite.As when i was toking on phone with jasnice,he msg me that he gg to trll me something impt.My heart began to beat faster.i could feel something bad going happen. as i reply wad....he replied (that he think thru le,he dun wan this relationship le as he feel focus on him too much)

After looking at this msg....i cry bt stopped for awhile,contiue talking to janice.after i hang...i began to daze at the ceiling for a long time,finally i cry again.after that my friend j call....he wad worry abt me

I then pick up the phone call..then he an wei me...after chatting for 2 hrs,i finally turn in.,Then something happen !GUess wad? I dream of him...omgoodness! why would i dream of him in not a right time ?haiz...sad bt still go to work...i becum so restless that finally i cry..again ..hugging xinyi makes me better ..des try all means to cheer me up.Yet,it dun works...then he allow me to slp under the red red thing.After slpin for 15min,i seem more awake and better....really thxs des for being a cheerful ppl no matter how bad is his life...he would always rey to cheer ppl up...Although this work is v tired,bt manage it to do it.customers i sthe 1 that really brightem our life that i really thxs LORD for this. tha all igg tp updat egt to slp and haf a close encouther wof LORD