bad stuff

recently..i haf been bad realationship with my mum..haiz ..everyday we will haf internal conflicts,we quarrel until very firece....i talk back to her...bt i dun mean it..i trying my best to explain .however ,things get worse...i dont know what has it cause to turn out to be like this...haiz ...nw i cant even go church....i feeling like a traping bird....today ,i heard a shocking news....my heart keep beating non stop after i heard it...i find it hard to accept it ...then slowly i begin to miss him so much.....haiz ...